Shingles

I was diagnosed with shingles.  The doctor told me that if you had chicken pox as a child, the virus lives in you.  As you get older your immune system sometimes weakens and the virus can flare up and become shingles.  Blah, blah, blah...

If you know anything about me you know that I believe everything happens for a reason and there are almost always lessons involved.  So obviously I wasn't going to settle for the doctor's explanation.  That was only one small part of what was going on.

I belong to a Thursday night meditation group.  I decided that during my meditation I was going to ask my guides, "What the hell was this all about?!"  I was immediately "told" that the shingles were on my right side which is considered the masculine side.  I was told that I needed more balance between my masculine and feminine.  I need to be a little more assertive in voicing my wants/wishes/needs/desires to other people...not being selfish or everything has to be my way, rather giving myself permission to have and express my opinion to others.  I'll give you an example.  If I'm meeting a friend for lunch and they ask where I want to go, I usually say, "It doesn't matter, you pick."  But it actually DOES matter.  I'm a vegetarian and some restaurants aren't vegetarian friendly.  Oh, I can always get a salad, but I don't always WANT a salad.  I always make do to accommodate everyone else.  Basically I was "told" that it's not only okay to give my opinion, I should give my opinion.

The other day my husband asked me if I was doing Reiki on myself.  Of course I wasn't.  If anyone needs me, I'm always there...ready and willing to help them out.  I love people and always make myself available for their highest and best good.  So I guess one of my shingles lessons is to  learn to love and take care of myself as much as I love and take care of others.

As I was speaking with a friend of mine the other day, she reminded me about my PTSD.  I was in an automobile accident 4 years ago.  I still have flashes of that which is how my PTSD manifests.  As we talked, I realized that my immune system has been under attack for 4 years now because of this.  It could be why I was a candidate for shingles.

I'm sure as I go along, there will be more lessons to add to these, but for now, I just wanted to share what I have so far.  I wanted to hopefully help YOU look for the lessons that are going on in YOUR life.  Don't always accept things as they look on the surface.  Dig a little.  See if there is something more to it.  It helps to make the things that happen to you and your whole life make much more sense.

Love,  Paula